I have been feeling really rough lately and it's starting to effect everyday life.
Today I went down to A&E with stomach pains but because I've got previous with stomach pains and stomach problems (endrometriosis) they told me there was nothing they could do I would have to struggle to get an appointment at my GP's to be sent back to the gyne at the hospital, whats so frustrating is that the department that i need to see is one that A&E can't refer you to, you have to go through a lengthy process of doctors appointments and waiting just to get where you need to go. I have been so tired as well but am having so much trouble getting to sleep, most nights i'm up all night and going to bed around 7 for a couple of hours.
I have suffered with endrometriosis since I was 11/12 when i started my period. I had heavy periods and periods that lasted for weeks some times a month or more. The pain I have suffered because of my endrometriosis is to the extreme it's so debilitating at times and although I am currently on the neplexton implant to help treat and prevent the endrometriosis it seems that the treatment isn't slowing down the process as much as it should be. In October of this year I had an operation to laser my endrometriosis this is the second endrometriosis operation, the first of which was when I was around 15/16. Last year I had an ovarian cyst removed which they believe is linked to my endrometriosis.
Endrometriosis is where the tissue that lines the womb grows outside of it. Endrometriosis is a long term chronic disease the symptoms include painful heavy periods, pain in the lower abdomen,pelvis or lower back, pain during sex, bleeding between periods and difficulty getting pregnant. The only way to diagnosis endrometriosis is through a surgical examination a laparoscopy which if endrometriosis is present can be treated by laser treatment.
endrometriosis is treated by painkillers and hormone medication, there is no known cure for endrometriosis.
I also suffer with social anxiety and depression.social anxiety is a persistant and overwhelming fear of social situations.
I have always been called shy or quiet but I have since learned that i'm not just shy and quiet it's actually alot more complicated that that. During secondary school I was hardly there due to my health problems so it was easy to pass over my social anxiety. When I started college things became really difficult for me and I started to struggle sevearly with everyday life. Every morning my stomach would churn, i'd feel sick, have a upset stomach, shake and even had a panic attack at the fact I would be going to college that day. College was one of the most difficult things in my life at that time. I would hardly make it through the entire three days as I couldn't cope, one of the hardest things for me at this time was admitting to my family what was going on as I was hiding it from them, trying to explain to people who don't suffer from social anxiety is incredibly hard as they could not understand what I was going through. For a while they dismissed what I was telling them which actually led to a couple of breakdowns, where I would mentally collapse from the strain of going through everything alone. After one hard breakdown after a terrible day at college where I was called out by my teacher for being quiet, not speaking out, not being able to answer questions asked to me it was so hard to go through. After this we made an appointment with my GP to talk through what was going on.
I was giving medication to help my anxiety and the depression. The college unfortunately didn't understand the diagnosis and what it meant, I had to drop out of my college education as I could not cope and was not getting the support I needed.
Now I am still struggling with my social anxiety and trying to get through it.
social situations that affect me are:
speaking to people I don't know
meeting strangers
speaking on the phone
eating in public
using public restrooms
crowded rooms/ shopping centers/ shops
walking down the road on my own
public speaking
going to social gatherings
being watched while doing something
useful links
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Endometriosis
http://www.nhs.uk/conditions/Endometriosis/Pages/Introduction.aspx
http://www.nhs.uk/conditions/social-anxiety/Pages/Social-anxiety.aspx
http://www.social-anxiety.org.uk/
Youtube videos
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7-iNOFD27G4
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Sjuk3WMZByo
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fAbI93RmP7k
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JVft4hBoEvQ
If anyone reading this is going through the same things please know you are not alone and there are always people to talk to.
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